| I, Me, Sinner. |
| This project was born out of a life long struggle to combat fears and desires from within, that rise to the surface and come out as ills that still ail me till this very day. How many of you have dealt with the feeling, that there were other forces at work in your life. Forces that were making you do things, that ran against the grain of your own good judgement. Ideas that were wrong, but so very inviting, enticing, stimulating and so very delicious in your minds eye and as a basic draw, that you just couldn't look the other way, let alone discern that they would damage and lead you down a path that harbored negative situations and meanies of every shape, way and form. "It all looked so very good, I've just got to do it." cried my mind and soul. As one who has experienced this deadly thrill on a one to one basis. Who has faced his demons and lost, more than once, but more like, hundreds of times since my very youth, take this as fact and a warning ... With mercy for you and your precious dreams and your life, run if you can, as far as your feet will take you and beware ... There are other runners beside you, running faster than you and will never tire, not for a moment. I'll introduce you to fallen angels and demons, one on one. I'll transport you to places and environments that are chaotic and twisted, distorting the very fabric of what you thing of as true reality. I'm always genuine and direct and to the point ... Always. This is no fairy tale, but a struggle between good and evil. Evil that has been around ever since the good Lord has known it. These tales, these drawings, I bring you with the utmost clarity. These tales and pictures you'll see have definitely transpired. Dealings with the horrors from demons that stroll through my sleep and when I'm awake, linger in my waking state. Beware and take none of this lightly, for if you do, and think that what I am about to tell you is but a tale of fancy from my vivid imagination, you're only fooling and deceiving yourself. For I'm sure, that these very struggles are more than similar to the ones in your life and could be yours if you think on it for a bit to long. Each of us have our own demons, attached like glue to our lives, our worldly failings and desires of heart and of mind. Each of us are sinners and has his own private and public sins to deal with. I'm sure your demons are pating you on the back. I'll be taking you to the very moments I have found to be my beginnings with the beasts some 57 years ago. I remember it like it was just yesterday. I remember it in total. And so we begin ... |
| the mad monster maker |
| This book with illustrations throughout, began January 1st, 2010. The latest update on this book is the adding of a new illustration, for Chapter 23 called "In the Ward". This illustration is one of those that will be seen when the book is published. I won't be labouring the illustrations, nor the writing itself. I already have someone, who is helping me with the publication of the book. I also have an proof reader/editor, who has committed themself to being part of this book project. Below, you will find the titles for the chapters of this book, thus far. For now, this is the only page that can be viewed. The rest you'll have to wait on. Maybe from time to time, during the creation of this book, I'll privy you to some of the illustrations done. But let me be very clear, all of it will not be released until the final publication of the book. This is only a trailer and a teaser, of all there is to come. Take note: Some of the tales here are taken from the Black House - Tales of Terror book, also in the production stage of development. After careful mental study, I decided that they were more appropriate to this tale, hence they are here. I guess subconsciously my mind has been working on this book for a long time, without me even knowing it. Now let me introduce the project. |
| Illustration done in 2009. Created for the Chapter titled: Beast at the edge of my bed. An Introduction. |
| Index |
Preface
Preface completed on February 5th, This will not be shown, till publication.
Chapter 1 ..... A babe asleep,
come beasts from deep.
Illustration done, added on January 13th, 2020. This will not be shown, till publication.
Chapter 2 ..... He kneels ...
Pulled wrong, pulled right.
Illustration done, added on January 16th, 2010. This will not be shown, till publication.
Chapter 3 ..... He finds his Daddy's stash.
Chapter 4 ..... Go out, so I can sin.
Chapter 5 ..... Out of the closet
and into the sin.
Chapter 6 ..... Peak a boo ... I see you.
Illustration
Chapter 7 ..... Behind this door lies ecstasy.
Illustration done, added on February 5th, 2010. This will not be shown, till publication.
Chapter 8 ..... Whose that there?
Illustration done, added on January 10th, 2010. This will not be shown, till publication.
Chapter 9 ..... Beast at the edge of my bed.
Illustration
Chapter 10 ... Again and again, will sleep
ever come.
Chapter 11 ... Men lust. Women love.
(And never the twain shall meet.)
Chapter 12 ... Wont someone hear my cry.
Illustration done, added on February 15th, 2010. This will not be shown, till publication.
Chapter 13 ... Peaceful and in sleep.
Illustration.
Chapter 14 ... There's something under
my sheet.
Illustration.
Chapter 15 ... The Exorcism
Illustration. (Added January 18th, 2010)
Chapter 16 ... Come out. Come out.
Where ever you are.
Chapter 17 ... Me and my Satan.
Illustration. (Added January 27th, 2010)
Chapter 18 ... If they cause you to sin ...
Pluck them out.
Illustration. (Added January 27th, 2010)
Chapter 19 ... A toke, more smoke,
aint life but "What a joke."
Illustration done, added on February 13th, 2010. This will not be shown, till publication.
Chapter 20 ... Pills ... Enough or not enough.
Illustration.
Chapter 21 ... I want in.
Illustration done, added on January 31st, 2010. This will not be shown, till publication.
Chapter 22 ... The guard at the door.
Chapter 23 ... In the ward.
Illustration done, added on February 22nd, 2010. This will not be shown, till publication.
Chapter 24 ... At home ... Not at peace.
Chapter 25 ... Beast on my shoulders.
Illustration. (Added January 27th, 2010)
Chapter 26 ... The shrink ... The therapist ...
And the pills.
Chapter 27 ... Today ... Tomorrow ...
Will it ever end.
Preface completed on February 5th, This will not be shown, till publication.
Chapter 1 ..... A babe asleep,
come beasts from deep.
Illustration done, added on January 13th, 2020. This will not be shown, till publication.
Chapter 2 ..... He kneels ...
Pulled wrong, pulled right.
Illustration done, added on January 16th, 2010. This will not be shown, till publication.
Chapter 3 ..... He finds his Daddy's stash.
Chapter 4 ..... Go out, so I can sin.
Chapter 5 ..... Out of the closet
and into the sin.
Chapter 6 ..... Peak a boo ... I see you.
Illustration
Chapter 7 ..... Behind this door lies ecstasy.
Illustration done, added on February 5th, 2010. This will not be shown, till publication.
Chapter 8 ..... Whose that there?
Illustration done, added on January 10th, 2010. This will not be shown, till publication.
Chapter 9 ..... Beast at the edge of my bed.
Illustration
Chapter 10 ... Again and again, will sleep
ever come.
Chapter 11 ... Men lust. Women love.
(And never the twain shall meet.)
Chapter 12 ... Wont someone hear my cry.
Illustration done, added on February 15th, 2010. This will not be shown, till publication.
Chapter 13 ... Peaceful and in sleep.
Illustration.
Chapter 14 ... There's something under
my sheet.
Illustration.
Chapter 15 ... The Exorcism
Illustration. (Added January 18th, 2010)
Chapter 16 ... Come out. Come out.
Where ever you are.
Chapter 17 ... Me and my Satan.
Illustration. (Added January 27th, 2010)
Chapter 18 ... If they cause you to sin ...
Pluck them out.
Illustration. (Added January 27th, 2010)
Chapter 19 ... A toke, more smoke,
aint life but "What a joke."
Illustration done, added on February 13th, 2010. This will not be shown, till publication.
Chapter 20 ... Pills ... Enough or not enough.
Illustration.
Chapter 21 ... I want in.
Illustration done, added on January 31st, 2010. This will not be shown, till publication.
Chapter 22 ... The guard at the door.
Chapter 23 ... In the ward.
Illustration done, added on February 22nd, 2010. This will not be shown, till publication.
Chapter 24 ... At home ... Not at peace.
Chapter 25 ... Beast on my shoulders.
Illustration. (Added January 27th, 2010)
Chapter 26 ... The shrink ... The therapist ...
And the pills.
Chapter 27 ... Today ... Tomorrow ...
Will it ever end.
| For now, this is where we are. With some words, some illustrations, and some thoughts. I hope, and let me be perfectly clear on this point, you can be honest with yourself and believe that who you are, with your own desires and weaknesses, you dig into my chapters Believe that they are not totally stemming from your inner self, but some come from untouchable and sometimes touching, entities and forces. As I said, from time to time I'll tune you into another illustration and some more words to draw you in. I plan on having the book published sometime, hopefully later this year. I hope that you'll be there when it comes to pass. And after it's completion there will be other books to write and other illustrations to be drawn. Until ... |
| Epilogue |