Self Portraits
continued

it's as
simple
as
that
Santa's Christmas
I was blessed with two
boys.   It was exactly
at that age in their lives
that I began to
appreciate being a Dad.  
 I bought a Santa suit
and wore it every year
until one year the boys
said,
"Dad, we know your
not Santa."
I was very depressed
when I made this one.    
Can't you tell.
Horror is something that each
of us depict in our own way.  
The idea of dying and having
screwed up so much, as to
damn myself to Hell's fury.  
It's more than a terrible
thought, it's what nightmares
are made of.
This is one of those
strange adventures
into my mind.
I guess someone could
make a really bad
horror movie out
of this one.
"The Turkey that ate
the guests"
Damn, you'd never catch me going to dinner at
that house again.
I can't tell you how
many times I found
myself feeling just
like this at the
hands of my
unruly computer.

I just love
technology.
Fragmentation.
A very useful word when it comes to my art and even my life.
I feel this depicts my state of mind.
Which way do I go, which side of the cube shall I satisfy this
day.   Sometimes, I get depressed and struggle to keep my head
together.    Sometimes, especially in the early hours of the day,
I'm bundled in energy.    What ever I do, it's all me.
Fish and fish keeping, go back a long way.
Thirty odd years or more.
At one point, I had more than ten fish tanks
set up, with varieties stemming from salt,
to brackish, to fresh water varieties.   
Sometimes I'd sit in from of the aquarium
and stare at the fish for hours on end.   
I'm sure from their point of view,
I looked just like this.
Created 12/27/04
I think it was more than appropriate that I would
create this piece, on Friday the 13th.
My mood was dark and mysterious.   
My mood was very personal and profound.
I feel that I have captured a side of myself
that always been their and I have never denied.
A lonely side of my art.
Things I feel when I'm alone.
When I  have no one to share things with.  
It's a somber side of myself.  
Rich in feelings, but very much alone.
Created 1/13/05
I've been suffering from these horrid dreams for to
many years.   Dreams where I wake up with
pounding fists upon my father's head.   He was a
man who knew no logic and delighted in pushing the
other into battles on his level of reality.   
My wife has a rolled up comforter between us,
because she's worries that I'll wake her with fists
pounding upon her body.   
With therapy and time
I hope to resolve these dreams.
But so far years later, I haven't.
I always loved my guitars.
Loved to play them.     Loved to collect at them.
Loved to look them.

I always loved my amps.
Loved to play through them.     Loved to collect them.
Loved to look at them.

I always loved my hats.
Loved to wear at them.      Loved to collect them.
Loved to look at them.
I just love it.
Created 3/04/05
Here's where I live
a big chunk of my life.

Sometimes writing.
Sometimes making music.
Sometimes crying.
Sometimes laughing.

                        But always, I am me.

                        Always.
Created 3/20/05
I love this side of me.
It's bright.   It's witty.   It's where I love to be.
Each of us live with multiple sides to ourselves.
Admitting it, is the difficult part.
Some of us call it being moody.
.Some release it when to much pressure is put on us
or when a big weight in life is taken away.
Me, I come alive when I write.
It's where I'm most comfortable.
It's where I love to be.
I've titled this,
The Jester's Quill
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Page revised April 20, 2008
College was an age of discovery for
me.    I fo
und that there was a word
for the t
hings that I loved to do.
  And that word was "art".  It
    was a word I learned to
            respect and to
        hold in high regard.                             
            Art, I'm sure it will follow                  
                  me till
the end of my days.
I always loved the idea
of being an alien from outer
space.    Jetting around in my
saucer.    My favorite alien
ever, was the Metaluna
Mutant.   A creature from an
old Sci Fi classic, "This Island
Earth"
Think I look pretty cool
in my red sun glasses.

I consider myself
someone who really knows
and loves the blues.
When I pick up my guitar
and reach into myself
the sounds that
come out are real,
There's nothing quite like it.
A guitar and a smoke.  
Two things that go together.
The Blues Smoke
Created 2/25/05
placed on this page February 16, 2006